. march 20, 2003 .

Today was a very long day. I was scheduled to meet with the administration regarding my performance, but contingencies kept appearing until I had to go teach. This means, of course, that I get to meet tomorrow. I greeted this news with absolute joy, of course: the only thing better than spending one day full of sick dread is spending two!

I wasn't able to sleep last night. This may have been because I cut back on my happy pills for the first time last night, but in any case, I was awake at 3:45, my head spinning with half-apprehended fears. This isn't easing my sense of dread.