. february 16, 2003 .

Oh My God! How much do I suck at keeping this journal? I mean, it was bad enough when everything was being redacted - at least I was writing and there was a semi-decent pay-off at the end of it all. These days I can't even say that.

Dude. I think I feel a new New Year's Resolution brewing.

 

yeah...like you haven't seen this picture enough times
me in the me shirt.

My Valentine's Day was pretty spiff, thank you very much. I had to work of course, but since it was a spirit day, I got to wear my black & red striped tights, my pink ME shirt, and sticky pink lip-gloss. Yee! It's good to be me.

I'm starting to lose my easy confidence with my 10 Applied class. It's bone-chilling how long they can spend doing absolutely nothing. I thought that my 12 College class was inert, but my new class makes my old class look like flaming magnesium. (Heh. I remember only a smattering of highschool chem; just enough to pass as clever.)

The 10 Advanced class is fine, if a little quiet (I had no idea how much of my enjoyment in that class was built on the comments of 4 or 5 mouthy brats.) I like that they're reading multicultural novels rather than just their own choice of book - for one thing, it cuts down on the amount of outright cheating. (There's only one way for a new teacher like myself to learn what books are on the curriculum, and that's the painful way. I had no idea they're teaching "The Outsiders" in Grade 8 now.) I have a few phone calls to make tomorrow, but withal they are lovely if not lively.

It's my 11 University class that is the star in my firmament these days. As Teresa pointed out, it's not like they're particularly brilliant, but they're unusually kind as a group - and unlike my last experience with the course code, most of the kids are performing at a Grade 11 University level. This in itself is wonderful. On Friday I gave them an article by Russell Smith on Valentine's Day, and I was heartily amused by their reactions.

I like them. And I like that I like them. Hell, some days I wander out of that class in a flutter, like I'm 13 years old and I've seen my crush rounding a corner up ahead. Sometimes I not only like them, sometimes I'm in love with them. I suppose that says a lot about how horrible last semester was.

yeah...like you haven't seen this picture enough times
the boy's card.
i think it looks exactly like him.

Okay, I started off talking about V Day, but then I got distracted. After school I met the Boy for dinner at the Bedford Ballroom, which is the first place we ate a meal together and has the added bonus of being terribly unromantic and thus easy to get into on Love Day. The Boy, riding high with his successes on the Christmas that just passed, handed me a bouquet of daisies and whipped off his toque to show me his fab new haircut. (I've taken to calling him "Golden Age Boy." I know, I know: we're nerds. Deal with it.) After dinner we grabbed some frozen yoghurt, met up with Dirk and dashed off to the Bloor to see "Punch Drunk Love." I really liked that movie. I think what I liked best about it was that Adam Sandler didn't spend a single second trying to make us laugh, not even when he was tap dancing in the drug store during his pudding-buying binge. I think that takes incredible courage.

Yesterday we braved the frigid (-25° C) weather to rally & march with 8000 or so other peace protesters. We were supposed to march with the Mild Mannered Army, but a serious lack of directions got in the way of the pre-march rendezvous, and we ended up arriving in the square on our own. During the initial speeches, the Boy & I did some reconnaissance in the nearby Eaton's Centre (well, actually I was just trying to get the feeling to come back to my feet.) While we sat in the Calvin Klein section and waited for the actual marching to begin, I played "Part of the Solution or Part of the Problem" in which I used gross & clumsy stereotypes to judge passer-by. Oh well - I'm mean, but at least I have all my toes.

Once we actually got moving, I quite enjoyed myself what with the chanting and the singing and the cheering and the booing. I drew peace signs in the parked car windows as we marched by, and ate almonds instead of the tempting chocolate. We marched for 2 hours, but we decided to turn tail during the concluding speakers. It was just too cold. The Boy decided to hook up with Exodus and I looked forward to getting home and doing laundry.

I was at the subway station closest to our house when I realized that I didn't have house keys.

Ooops. Good thing the Boy had us both buy day passes. I was able to leap back on the subway and travel to Exodus' neighbourhood. The problem was that I didn't know Exodus' number - and there are at least a dozen identical entries in the Toronto phone book. After 5 minutes of hard thinking, I decided to call Exodus' roommate Burke at the bar where he works. At least I knew the name of the bar. Unfortunately, Burke wasn't there. And when I did manage to find him, he let me know that the Boy had run off to a matinee almost as soon as the two of us had parted ways. In other words, I was fucked. Well, not completely fucked, because I had my wallet and if it really came down to it, I could've booked a hotel room. But I didn't think of that at the time. I just thought, "fucked," over and over.

Burke suggested that I come over and hide out in the warm bar until the boys showed up for their weekly dose of hockey. I was pretty tired of the wind chill at that point, and I have a feeling that I would've hung out in Hell, let alone a bar called "The Devil's Advocate." Anyway, to make a long story short, I spent my Saturday in a bar, drinking pot after pot of tea and devouring Chris Moore's new/old book, Lamb. I was lucky in that it was a kinghell of a book, good enough to distract me from the fact that I hadn't been properly warm since 10 a.m. and good enough to get me into a conversation with a stranger than encompassed West Coast living, jail, Salman Rushdie, NaNoWriMo and (my forte) the teaching of highschool English. Didn't get his name. Isn't that always the way?

Today we went to church and prepared for the Boy's immanent departure. I also baked two cakes, which are for the staff lunch tomorrow. Did I get any work done? Eh. Have I enjoyed myself this weekend? Two thumbs up.

2 years ago today: I love you more than a duck can swim
And more than a grapefruit squirts