Hi.
I know it's been awhile. I've been sick. And worried. There - there may be big changes ahead, how big I can't say. Definitely on the order of a new constellation in my mind's sky. Some of you will know what I'm talking about. It's not public knowledge yet, but every day it's getting closer to that state. When it is, when the gag order's been taken off, that's when I'll give you the full scoop. Sorry. It's kind of important.
What I can tell you: my evaluation went very well, and although the powers that be insist on seeing it as an "improvement" on my part rather than a "fair assessment of my talents," it is true that I'm in a far sunnier place than I was a week ago. My observed lesson went well, and the kids were about 5% better than they usually are. I'm having to provide piles of documentation as to my other competencies, and while it's, um, massively unfair, it's not like I have to make this evidence out of whole cloth. I'm good, and I don't need to fake it. I just have to gather that data into one place, all the better for close scrutiny.
I'm kind of ill, which sucks. I really thought I'd kicked it away last week, but every morning I get to my desk in the English office and stare grimly at the day, knowing that it's the last place in the world where I want to be. I suppose that I'm not the only one with spring fever, if it comes to that. Yesterday it was so warm that I had to take off my tights before I died of heat stroke. That's a very positive sign.
My aunt has flown back to Korea. After her husband died, there was very little for her here, other than the crazed attacks of my grandmother and the quiet support of my mother & her brothers. I just can't believe that we're down to three brothers. There've been a brace of 'em as long as I can remember, too many to fit into one town at one time. Now the whole generation could share a diner table. Fuck.
Dirk seems to have come out of his self-imposed exile for the time being, which I count an excellent thing. He has three different trips upcoming, including Convergence in Vegas, Germany and StanFest. Although I'm slightly jealous, I'm happier that he's up for some fun once more. This is a big part of what's been missing from my life since we moved back to Gomorrah.
