april 10, 2000.

originally sent to the notify list.

get in the game.
love my erratic nature.
join the notify list.

The subject says it all. Just when things were looking up, too. I have the feeling that if I don't take a hiatus, I'll wind up at my Tuesday exam without a single moment of study time at my disposal. Then I'll be trying to discuss Louis XVI from memory, and you know that ain't a pretty site.

In terms of a brief update:
My energy has been swooping up & down lately. Unfortunately, when it goes up, it doesn't go up too far. When it descends, however...let's just say that I've been doing a lot of lying down lately. It wouldn't be so bad, except that I tend to swoop about an hour before I get to go home from work, and I have to pretend that I'm not a dog-tired zombie. Hard hard work.

Work was both better & worse today. Better because it feels good to finally clear through some of the tired-looking backlog. Worse because they cut off my internet access. I didn't even do anything wrong...I requested internet email to do my job, they took a good look at my access profile & shut down my explorer. And to add insult to injury, I still can't send email outside the company system!! Bastards.

I haven't been doing much. Drinking water, blowing my nose, composing a mixed CD for Mike, lying down, missing the Boy. My midwinter depression has disappeared completely, and along with it my angry fear of the coming transformation. Now I just listen to the Stone Roses & smile a dreamy smile.

Until the exam's written, then.