December 16, 1998.

My last exam was over three hours ago. Heave big sigh of relief...yeah. So all that remains is the X-mas shopping and then I'm off to the glorious life of the suburbs. I'm kind of treating the next couple weeks as a dummy run...if I can take the next 2 weeks without wanting to kill myself or others, I might seriously consider moving back home after summer school wraps up. It's a money vs. sanity thing, really. At home I live rent-free, with ample access to a car (and I rarely have to pay for gas). But...

...and here's the rub: my folks drive me crazy. Not all the time, but frequently. It's intense being one of two adult children living with both parents. Especially my family.

Example - my mother took issue with my dress every day during my first week home last summer. Every day. I'm admit that my nightclub wear has gotten much more extreme in the last year, but it's more than made up for the fact that I'm a nerd. I've been in two monogamous relationships to date. I don't give away my phone number in clubs or take people home, and I certainly don't follow them home. Nerd, I tells ya.

So it was extremely frustrating to be reduced to tears every day for nothing.

To get back to the main argument, the advantages to the city are numerous - but they come at a price. I'm sure I can make enough to survive, but I need to go to teacher's college the year after next. And I've been spoiled so far...I always make close to three grand in the summer, and my parents cover the rest. I don't want to piss them off, because they're really good to me. I just don't want to be miserable if it won't build character.

Idle thought for the day, courtesy of The Boy:

Do you suppose that they have to pitch pornography just like any other movie?

"You see, I envision a character who has casual sex with a variety of partners."

"I'm listening..."

I had something more, I think, but I've since lost it. Hm. Story of my life. Last night I dreamt that I was reading a souped up version of Stacy's diary, with new entries and everything. Yes, I dreamed of the web. How geeky is that?